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07 jul 06 "Do you ramble in technicalities so you can escape answering the question in its simplest form?" generally not -- i "ramble in technicalities" (whatever that means) to fill up space and entertain myself. this is a writing project -- i enjoy sitting here, tapping away at the keyboard, and was tired of blogging. so, i invented this "reverse comment system". you are all puppets of my will; your sole purpose is to entertain me. now, dance! note that in many of my essays, i provide a simple, basic answer within one or two lines at the end or beginning, partly because i feel guilty about going on for a few hundred words without saying much at all, but largely because it's taken me the whole of the aforementioned essay to arrive at that simple answer -- what you're reading is my thinking aloud, basically. i provide what you might see as superflous, arguably-related details in order to help me get somewhere. that, and my mind simply gets carried away on uncontrollable tangents when i write. they get left in, because they fill up space, and because sometimes they're interesting. if i can generate a page or so of more-or-less cohesive and complete sentences, then i consider a question to be "answered". i have to admit that it's not entirely true that you are my puppets, and that your only purpose is to entertain me. a lot of the reason i write so much is that it's my purpose to entertain you; i like to write for an audience, no matter how much i might pretend to hate them or heap scorn upon them. after my blog was discontinued, i tried to write a journal, and found it impossible; i couldn't get up the motivation to write a single sentence. "why am i doing this?", i thought, knowing that i was creating a sad little file on a hard drive in an upstairs room in a house; the little file must internetwork for that little file to be happy. since it's become a cliche to hate blogs, online answer columns are the way to go in order to publish silly content. i'm surprised you don't see them more often than you do. but yeah -- answering a question bluntly and without superfluous detail would be boring for me, and boring for readers. once and a while, i've remarked that a question is hard, and that it's going to take a while for me to answer, and that i might not even answer it to your satisfaction (answer it correctly). but, i write something anyway, often at length. on the "is there anything that you don't know?" answer, i said "there is nothing about which i won't at least make something up." i never promised you a rose garden, here. answer: no, i'm not trying to avoid the question; it just turns out that way. i'm rambling because it helps me to arrive at a concrete answer (which i may realize and provide, fail to realize and provide, fail to realize and withhold, or realize and withhold), and because i just enjoy rambling. believe it or not, i'm getting sick of bach. |
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